The last post I put up was missing a few things. I had labeled a bath AND a necklace. I never even got to those items that were in the title. I think I’ll go back and change it. I don’t want anyone to be misled. The bath post will be it’s own later but for now, I’m going to focus on me. Yup, ME. The Mother!
This child is a pretty shitty kid. I’m not referring to Sonyea either. I’m referring to me. Yup, me. It really dawned on me tonight how shitty a kid I’ve really been. I got to thinking about my mom tonight. Just a little while ago actually. Today is the first Mother’s Day since I’ve become a Mom that we didn’t go to Buffalo. It just wasn’t in the cards today.
That’s not why I refer to myself as a bad child. Sure, I was pretty scary as a teenager and I fear for my sanity when my girls reach that age. What makes me sad is that my Mom has been wingin’ this whole parenting thing without her Mom. My Grandma died a long time ago and my Mom has done this without the help of a mom. And you know what annoys me? When I talk to my mom about things and tell her what’s going on, she laughs and throws out the “payback.” Gee, thanks. But you know what… I hear stories at work, through my friends and I laugh. I see bad kids at work and I laugh, thinking back to what it was like when my child did that. It’s so wrong but it’s what we do as parents. We relish in the fact that it wasn’t us this time and hopefully we don’t have to deal with that again.
My girls are still so young that I know I’m going to have to go through so many more of those moments where I’m going to be on the receiving end of those laughs, and knowing nods, and those sniggering behind their sympathy frowns. But I also know that I’m lucky to have my mom around. Even if she lives over 200 miles away. That 3-4 hour drive isn’t so daunting when you think about those who don’t have a mom any longer. Mom, I love you and I really have no idea how you managed to raise me and Keith without a Mom yourself!! I can’t imagine it’s been easy, I can’t imagine the difficulties without the internet. My life consists of all my Mommy friends living in my computer at just a moments post I can have sympathy and hugs and advise.
I often times think the internet has been the downfall of humans. The lack of personal interaction has really ruined it for a lot of people. Myself included. It’s crazy to have so many friends and family but be so isolated.
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That crazy kid of mine really is sweet yet oh so dramatic!! It’s so crazy how we can get reports from school saying she can identify her emotions/feeling and voice them to her peers/teachers but when she gets home, the drama flies all through the house!! How do we get those school personalities to remind the home personalities what they learned at school??
She made me the most perfect necklace at school for Mother’s Day. I’ve been wearing it proudly at work. Showing it off to anyone who means anything to me. Showing it off to perfect strangers because MY daughter made THIS for me at school. It’s my first school made Mother’s Day present. It also came with a plant of some sort, wrapped in a bag with the words perfectly written, “MOM I LOVE YOU” I cried. I cried big crocodile tears because it was so sweet. She was so proud to have given me things that she made at school, JUST FOR ME!!!
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I’ve always hoped that Jimmy would know me enough to know what I want. Most of the time, we are on the same wavelength. Many times, it’s so far apart it’s scary. However, I’ve come to grips with the fact that he’s not a mind reader. Probably a good thing too!! I emailed him what I wanted for Mother’s Day. A simple art project that the girls could do and have some fun doing. Something to remind me that they were small once even if I have trouble remembering some of those moments when they were little. Here is their interpretation of the idea I sent him. I LOVE IT SO MUCH!!!
It’s hanging on my wall where I can see it anytime I want to. It’s almost the first thing you see when you walk in the door. My precious peanuts have used their body parts to make me the best flowers a Momma could ever ask for. The best sun shining, the coolest birds flying (Jimmy made those) and the tallest flowers anyone could ever wish for!!
It was a great day, even though I had to spend most of it at work and I had to clean up an accident but at least it was in the bathroom but we aren’t going to dwell on that anymore. It’s forgotten and the BEST Mother’s Day yet is in the books for me to always remember!!
Happy Mother’s Day to all my friends and family!!
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